Tuesday, May 4, 2010

TwiMeme Kink "RedWings" Chapter 1 of 2

Pairing: traditional canon pairings in the story's "world" but the active pairing for chapter 1 is Rose/Bella/Alice. Chapter 2 is Alice/Bella/Edward/Jasper


Warning: Blood play of the menstrual sort in both chapters. Blood play of the vampiric sort in chapter 2. Femmeslash.


 Prompt: i want blood play, *THAT* kind. earn some red wings. emmett, edward, jasper, carlisle, jake - makes me no never mind. M/F, F/F... all human, vamp, wolves...?? oral? surprise me.

just make it hot, detailed, believable, and affectionate.

Setting: Breaking Dawn AU- Bella did not get pregnant on their honeymoon. This takes place at the end of August. Bella is staying in the main house, not the cottage, while Edward is away.

BPOV

My back ached as I wrapped my body around the heating pad. Everything hurt and I was glad Edward and his 'brothers' had gone on a hunting trip. Knowing that they could smell my blood, even though Alice had assured me that menstrual blood did not have the same lure as fresh from my vein, made our encounters embarrassing. Carlisle, in response, had started scheduling a family camping trip during the first four days of my cycle each month. Once they have returned, Edward and I will be leaving for college. A year from now, I will be like them and my blood will no longer be of concern. Only one more year of cramps. That is another benefit of the change I will enjoy.

The gold duvet seemed even more opulent in the twilight sun filtering over the trees into Edward's room. After taking a sip of the warm tea Edward and Carlisle had left for me in a thermos beside the bed, I pulled the covers up more tightly and fell into a fitful sleep. My period always left me more easily aroused and while Edward was more than willing to meet my needs now that we have married, I prefer to not increase his discomfort around my blood.

Waking to small hands kneading my lower back, I was not surprised to find Alice massaging me. During the worst of my discomfort, she was always there to ease my pain. I was, however, surprised to find her in only a pair of shorts. Firm breasts brushed against my shoulder blades occasionally before a soft giggle from my masseuse had us both quivering as she pushed and pulled at my flesh.

“I see what's going to happen, Bella. I promise you'll enjoy it; the three of us will, actually.” Her voice was the low breathy tone she used around Jasper when she wanted alone time with him.

“Three of us?”

Alice leaned down so that her body covered mine, her thighs parting over my lower back, breasts pressing into my shoulder blades. “You, me, and Rosalie. Rosalie remembers how badly she hurt during these moments. I don't, but I can see how badly you do.” A small line of cold wetness crept along my ear as Alice's tongue peeked out. “We can smell your arousal. Let us help you, Bella. Edward's hunting trip isn't over until Monday. What we can give you will be much more satisfying than using the shower head in the bathtub later.”

My cheeks flashed with fiery hot blood as I blushed. Being in a family with a visionary, a mind-reader, and an empath, left me in trouble. It was something I had better become accustomed to.

“You don't need to blush, Bella. It's just us girls here. There isn't a need to hide from us. We're vampires; we like blood. If you were married to a vampire whom you didn't 'sing' to, there would be no doubt that your pussy would be sore from overzealous attention.”

I trembled with acknowledged need as Alice's hands slid down my sides, fingertips brushing against the edges of my breasts before coming to rest on my hips behind her own thighs. “Edward knows, Bella. He told Rosalie and me to help you if you needed it. Jasper could sense your frustration last time and told Edward. We know he more than meets your needs the rest of the month. Let me help you now.” Those strong fingers pressed beneath me, just barely skirting the edge of my mound. “One word and we'll make you feel like a pampered goddess.”

I needed to look into her eyes; needed to see that she wasn't just teasing me from some bet with Emmett. As my decision to at least consider their offer came to me, Alice turned me over effortlessly. “Is that a yes, Bella?” Her smile was soft and sweet, at odds with her playful purr.

“I'm still considering.” At my words, Alice reached beside her and grabbed her cellphone. After dialing Edward, she handed me the phone. “Edward?”

His laughter lightened my heart. “Bella, love, how are things there?”

The pressure of my teeth furrowing my lower lip bordered on pain before I released the flesh to answer my husband. “I woke up to Alice massaging me, which was nice.” Even I could hear the slight tension in my voice.

I presume you are calling because my dearest little sister was in an odd state of dress when she arrived and made an interesting offer?” After several minutes of silence, Edward made a coughing sound before I heard the crack of him hitting another vampire. “Bella, my sisters mean well; and with my medical training, I can assure you will feel more relaxed and have less discomfort after their, um, ministrations. I will be home as soon as I have fed. Perhaps if I have slaked my thirst adequately, I can repeat Alice and Rosalie's activity with you.”

A deep hum signified he was speaking beyond my brain's ability to separate words. “Edward?”

Another crack sounded through the phone. “I was simply informing Emmett that he would not be entitled to a video of Rosalie with you.” A soft sigh was followed by a declaration of love and then a good-bye. “Whatever you decide, Isabella, my blessing is with you. I wish for you to be comfortable and much less frustrated when I return to you. I love you.”

Alice took the phone from me and let it slide gently down the duvet to the floor. “I know your decision, Bella; but, I want to hear it from you. Will you let Rosalie and me worship you?”

If Alice had already seen me agreeing, it was simply a matter of them convincing me. Having her atop me was distracting and I wondered, not too briefly, what the differences would be in making love to a woman versus Edward.

We'll go slow, Bella. I promise.” she said as I nodded. Alice's fingers moved to the tank top I wore and lifted the hem slightly, just enough to slip her hands under the fabric. It was Edward's undershirt, and having his scent on me made the whole encounter more comfortable. He had known before leaving and wanted this.

The door opened and closed, allowing Rosalie to come in on silent feet. She wore crimson satin, shorts and a camisole, that demurely covered her curves. Alice wore dark gold shorts of the same shimmering material, but her flushed nipples were bare. They were the same dusky rose as her lips and as I had the thought of what kissing Alice would be like, she leaned down and pressed her lips to mine.

Even with the vampiric hardness to her skin, Alice's lips held a softness, a ripeness, to the lush swell that was distinctly female. I didn't feel the overwhelming electricity as I always have with Edward, but the sizzle, the subdued passion, was like laughing in the rain instead of a maelstrom of need. A flick of her tongue moistened her lips and mine, and I tasted a hint of cantaloupe in her venom. Where Edward was honeyed mint, Alice was sweet cantaloupe with a touch of tangy cucumber to brighten the sweetness. It was pleasant, clean, and undeniably arousing.

There's more, Bella, so much more.” Alice motioned for Rose to join us and then kissed me once more.

Cool hands palmed my thighs and then stretched me apart so that Rose could kneel between my legs. “What our husbands would give for a picture of this,” she let out on a soft laugh.

When Alice sat up, Rosalie towered over her. Being a full foot taller had Rosalie's chin easily resting on Alice's head. My body felt warm despite their chilly temperature as Rosalie cupped Alice's breasts, letting their small weight fill her palms. “She likes it when you squeeze like this.” I watched in lusty awe as Rose slowly squeezed and tugged, pulling the flesh out until she only held the nipples between her fingers.

Alice came nearer, until I could smell the soft vanilla scent of her lotion. Rosalie was leaning over her, pushing both their bodies closer. “Taste her, Bella. Feel how sensitive she is.”

With an encouraging nod from Alice, I kissed her left nipple and then the right. The skin was puffy, hard yet also giving. Parting my lips over one pouting bud, it hardened to puckered stone in my mouth as I sucked gently. It was not odd, as I expected; I was not given much time to think as Alice's reaction swept me away.

Ooh!” It started as an exclamation and ended as a hum as I bit down experimentally. Pressure against my stomach was followed by a soft “ah” sound as Rose slid her fingers under Alice's shorts and apparently into her. Alice's neck made a graceful arch as her head fell back against Rosalie's shoulder. Her hips moved against my waist, trapping Rosalie's arm between us.

I...thought...this...was...about...Bella.” Alice panted out.

It is; but I know you, Alice. Once we start on Bella, you won't let us help you.” Rosalie's golden eyes were on mine as she continued to pump her fingers in and out of Alice's pussy. I moved to Alice's other breast and suckled at the tip, learning the feel of her flesh.

So distracted by what I was doing, I did not notice Alice's movement until she had cupped my breasts. There were none of Edward's tentative, worried of hurting me, touches. She moved with a confidence, and given her talent, I assumed she had seen exactly what would feel the best and how to do it. Alice settled some of her weight onto my chest, not enough to hurt, but enough that it was almost like having a human resting atop me. She shifted in time with Rosalie, and the golden haired goddess smiled a grin to rival the Cheshire Cat's.

“Almost,” she mouthed to me. “Bite.” Her whisper was accompanied by clicking her teeth together.

The skin didn't give beneath my teeth, yet the pressure seemed to go through. Alice whined, and pleaded for more, so I massaged her other breast, using the techniques I'd discovered I liked from Edward. Her breathing increased, as did the urgency in her movements against Rosalie. A low growl rose into a short, high-pitched squeal, and then died in a silent scream of pleasure.

Faster than my eyes could keep up with, Rose was reclined beside me, one hand lightly scratching at the smooth skin of my abdomen as Alice tugged at my shorts. She pulled my shorts and underwear down in one smooth movement, lifting me with one hand. “I could have just torn them off you, but Edward likes these and when he saw my vision, asked me to save them.”

Alice allowed her legs to slide down the bed until she was propped up on her elbows, her face just inches from my sex. “Your blood smells so sweet. You're aroused and the natural lubrication has increased the scent more than normal.” Her face dipped closer and she kissed the inside of my thigh. “Relax, Bella. You can stop me if anything hurts or you don't like it. I would never force you.” Small hands lightly rubbed my thighs.

“I'm going to slip a towel beneath you so that you aren't worried about the bedspread. You won't have a chance to make a mess, but, to set your mind at ease...” Alice trailed off as she tapped her forehead before putting a towel I hadn't seen under me, going from my waist to my knees. “Rose.” Some unspoken communication went between them and Rose applied a low level of pressure to my stomach.

“Hold still, Bella. We don't want Alice accidentally nicking you with her teeth.”

I wasn't given a chance to question her as Alice licked my pussy from top to bottom and back again. The strokes of her tongue were soft, and felt how I'd imagine a kitten lapping at cream. She avoided my clit as if on purpose, teasing me with gentle prodding that made me whine for more. Her tongue thrust into me, as Edward's has almost daily since the consummation of our marriage, and with a movement so slow it was excruciating, she tugged on the string of my tampon.

The sensation was unlike any I've felt before. The deliberate, tiny, outwards motion was akin to Edward's slow thrusts but held a level of anticipation for something on which I had no expectations to base. After Alice had pulled the cotton free, she quickly cupped it so it was out of my sight.

“Close your eyes, Bella, if you need to. I know how you feel about blood. I want you to enjoy what we're doing.”

Taking a deep breath, I hardly noticed the rusty salt tang of my blood, but could smell the sweet musk the three of us were creating. Nodding, I closed my eyes and released the reins of my pleasure to Alice and Rosalie.

Warm.

Slippery.

An impish giggle followed by a huskier one.

Another line of wet warmth blossomed across my stomach. One finger slid into me gently and twisted before withdrawing. More drawing was made and I couldn't resist a peek after five minutes of giggling and wetness. A masterful design of swirls and dots covered my stomach.

“You're beautiful, Bella, but a little messy. I think I should clean you off. It's only fair after the mess I made.” Alice's eyes had darkened to a burnt umber as she licked a still wet line of blood off my stomach. She purred as her whole face seemed to slacken in ecstasy.

“I'd forgotten how good human blood tastes.” A slightly rust-tinged drop of venom ran over her lip before she licked it away.

An hour passed as Alice drew out the anticipation, the expectation, alternating licking with more drawing.

“I think we owe Bella a little more in exchange for what you're getting out of this. Let me,” Rose demanded as Alice moved behind me.

Alice's arms locked around mine, holding me back against her slight form. I was too distracted by Rosalie's tongue on my thigh to notice the cold. Alice plucked at my nipples as she sucked at my shoulder and neck. Stimulation came from so many directions and was just shy of too much. I could feel my eyes growing unfocused as I tried to feel everything.

“I've never tasted human blood. Yours is my first, Bella. Thank you for this gift.” Rosalie smiled before kissing the top of my cleft. “You're so warm.”

The sight of her between my thighs was too much and I swallowed back a giggle as I thought of what our husbands would do if they could see. “Emmett would no doubt come in his pants,” Alice whispered. “Jasper would manipulate us all. Edward, he would watch. He wants so desperately to learn all the ways to please you.”

A sharp pinch on each nipple distracted me as Rosalie found my clitoris. I could feel my wetness against her skin in how freely she moved. A hum of pleasure reverberated through me as Rosalie had her first taste of me. She sucked and licked until I was only wet with her venomous saliva. My hips were grinding against her, seeking more friction as she abandoned my clit for the source of blood.

“More, please.” The whimper that left my throat astounded me as I pleaded for her to make me climax. One hand lifted to tangle in Alice's hair, tugging until she hissed; the other went to Rosalie's head, attempting to push her into my pussy harder.

Rosalie's tongue was a cool shock to my skin as it pushed into me. She lifted my thighs up and pressed them until I couldn't comfortably move further. Her fingers slid beneath her tongue, thrusting into me as she trilled across the sensitive inner lips before seeking out my clit again. I thrashed against her; they'd kept me on edge for too long, and the pressure had built until I wanted to cry with the need to come.

“We'll get you there, Bella. Don't worry. We want to make sure it is the strongest climax possible. Trust me; you'll come so hard you see stars.” Alice's fingers hadn't stopped toying with my nipples; rolling, pinching, and tugging. “Press down on her lower stomach, Rose. Just where the curve of her mound flattens out.”

As Rosalie did as directed, the electric ache rose even higher. From waist to knee, I felt both numb and highly sensitive. It was the most intense pins and needles of pleasure. The pressure swirled as it tried to crest and when Rosalie sucked on my clit again as her fingers thrust at near vampire speeds, I knew we were past stopping.

My skin went hot and cold, breaking out in a sheen of sweat. Toes curled, fingers tightened and released air as I sought purchase against my own nervous system. When the door to my and Edward's room opened, I couldn't stop the unearthly moan that erupted from my chest. My eyes closed as the wave swept over me, crushing me to the depths of the sea until I couldn't breathe and did see stars. It lifted me up as fingers twisted faster inside me and I screamed out the divine goddesses' names before me and behind me for giving me this experience.

Hours later. Minutes later. I was not aware of time as I arched and bucked against the fingers and mouth eliciting such a response. When it stopped, all I knew was silence. No one breathed save myself.

I was under a thick fog as I opened my eyes. Nothing wanted to function; sleep beckoned. Somewhere though, I knew that more eyes were on me than those belonging to Rosalie and Alice. Summoning a last burst of strength, I focused on the doorway. Edward was three feet into the room, Jasper beside him, and Emmett stood with his back against the doorjamb. All seemed paler than normal and were covering the front of their pants with lowered hands.

It was the latter of the three men who regained composure to speak first. “I'm not sure if we are too late for the party or just in time.”



Wednesday, March 17, 2010

TwiMeme Kink "Autoerotica"

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or its characters. No copyright infringement is intended.
Warning: Story was written from an anonymous Twi-Kink prompt for Edward and Carlisle, Jasper, or Seth with consensual erotic asphyxiation. If slash, kink, bdsm, breath play, and/or erotic asphyxiation are outside your comfort zone, please consider yourself warned.
Prompt: I want to see some erotic asphyxiation but I want it in a certain way.

Edward with Jasper/Carlisle/Seth...anyone of those three.

Preferably Edward on his knees, giving a blow job with a rope/electrical cord around his throat. Or getting fucked doggy style, the person holding the rope/cord around his throat as he fucks him from behind.

I want it completely consensual though. D/s-ish.

Also, a little name calling would be appreciated. I.e. "dirty slut", "little whore", and "fucktoy"

As well as the phrases "Good boy" or "Such a good pet"

Written by: fiberkitty
Rating: NC17
This is not my area of interest within BDSM, nor have I done more than very basic breath play, but hopefully that won't show.



Edward was on his knees as I entered the room. His cock was jutting out, hands clasped behind his neck, and he kept his eyes on the floor. I saw his lips twitch when I entered; he knew that our fun was about to begin.

“Is my fuck toy ready to play?”

I heard the catch of breath and smiled as I circled my pet We'd come across one another yesterday on the first day of the festival. I'd seen him admiring the young woman I had in low suspension, and asked if he was interested in playing. Later, over a mug of hot cider around the campfire, Edward and I discussed safety, health records, interests, and limits. Per my normal behavior, our flirting turned into biting, and once, while I had my arm around his neck and bit down on his shoulder, his moans turned into a loud plea for more until his face began to redden. With a promise to schedule dungeon time for breath play, I left Edward to his campsite and the order that he was not allowed to cum until I gave permission.

I did not have all my tools with me, such as a vacuum bed; those are a bit hard to bring with to a festival in the middle of the woods. However, I had rope and silk scarves in my toy box that could be used for our purposes.

I only had an hour to take him to his limits and could not wait to see him cry.

“To the bench.” He complied without a second thought. “You do want to be such a good little pet, don't you?” Edward nodded and slowly steadied his weight on the cushioned knee rest while leaning over. After fastening his hands and legs to the attached buckles I admired the taut round globes of his ass and considered whether I wanted to skip any preliminaries and just fuck him or draw this out and fill both holes during our time slot.

I slipped a blindfold over his eyes so that he could not see my intentions. The dumbfuck had refused to set a safe word so it was up to me to watch his limits. I'd given him the word “dragon” although he'd told me it would not be needed. I'd ensure he learned his lesson before working with another Master.

The scarf was nearly weightless as the red silk slid from hand to hand. I gently wrapped it around his throat, and stepped back to admire the image as Edward whimpered.

“Don't be afraid yet, my little slut; I am just making you look pretty. Your mouth and ass are going to be as red as the scarf by the time I'm done with you.”

I slid my tray of tools up beside us. First and foremost, a sharp blade to cut the ropes should there be an emergency; a handful of condoms, lubricant, and the rope I'd borrowed from my camping supplies. I normally traveled light, just keeping a few selections of clamps, floggers, and whips on hand.

My cock ached and beads of precum were oozing from the slit. I'd been hard all day as I planned out what I wanted to do to Edward. Stepping before him, I let my cock hit him in the face. He shifted slightly, trying to find my cock.

“Do I have myself a little dick pig? Do you want my cock? Tell your Master that you want his cock.”

Edward's breath came out in a fast rush and the power trip began to really hit me. Scenes like this were always my favorites. We had a few spectators watching from between the curtain folds.

“Please let me have your cock, Sir. I want to suck my Master's cock.”

My hips swayed side to side as I let my cock kiss his lips. Edward's lips opened, letting warm breath fan out over my cock. I reached for the rope and swung it, allowing the end to crack against his ass.

“Fuck!” Edward tried to hold back his exclamation through gritted teeth.

Gathering the rope between both hands, I quickly looped it around his neck and tugged, using it to pull him onto my cock. “Good boy.”

I pulled harder, slowly twisting up the slack so that the rope was pressing into his throat. The pressure was pretty light at first, not really blocking off his air, but he began to freak on me a bit. “Do you need me to stop?” I asked as only my cock head rested on his lips. He didn't respond. “Guess not, my dirty pet.”

I tightened the rope until his skin began to discolor and he began to thrash as I fucked his mouth. He was a damn good cocksucker, and I told him so. “You're a natural, boy; I can't wait to see you with a mouthful of my cum.”

As I plunged down his throat, his lips at the base of my cock, his chin grinding against my balls, I pulled harder, cutting off his air supply. Edward gagged in his panic, pulled off my cock, and began to buck against the bindings. “I can't breathe, Sir; I can't breathe!”

“You're talking, so you certainly can, whore.” I plunged my cock back into his mouth. “You know the word to make me stop.” I released the pressure slightly, allowing more air to him.

He mumbled out a “No, Sir,” around my dick, muffled by the meat, so I continued to fuck his mouth. Tightening the rope again brought about a similar panic and the most beautiful tears began to leak from beneath the blindfold. I withdrew of my own volition and moved behind him.

I released the rope for a moment to slide a condom over my length, already hating the space between our bodies. I watched as Edward continued to panic, head thrashing side to side as he fought to breathe. His whole body arched as I rubbed his shoulders in a soothing manner, using my best bedside manner. “Stop panicking and breathe. In and out. The rope isn't tight right now, Edward. Catch your breath and we'll resume.”

I could see some bruising beneath the scarf, but nothing that wouldn't fade within a few days. Motioning in one of the voyeurs, I gave a nod toward the large mirror and indicated for her to stand in front of Edward with it. She was naked, although her long dark hair covered her breasts, and a chastity belt hid the treasure between her thighs.

When Edward's gasping became just sobs for breath, I began to trickle the ice-cold lubricant over his ass. His yelp pleased me, but to let him know that would never do. “I didn't give you permission for that sound.” I pulled on the rope, until he sobbed out an apology.

“I'm sorry, Master! Punish me, Sir.”

Oh, I would punish him alright.

I quickly lubed the condom and then pushed against his sphincter. He was tight, but the ring gave quickly; he was no anal virgin. I saw in the mirror that he was biting the cushion to stop from moaning.

“I think you like me fucking your little boy cunt, Edward. You're my good pet, aren't you?”

So fucking tight, and hot. There is nothing like the first time I fuck an ass; each feels slightly different. His body was moving ever so subtly against me, his cock rubbing on the cushion in front of him. “Naughty slut. Do you need something for your own cock, boy?”

I tugged on the rope, earning a strangled sob.

“You look so hot, pet. Do you want to see yourself?” I yanked off the blindfold, letting him see himself at the same time I rotated my hips.

His tears came in earnest, full out sobs as large teardrops ran down his cheeks.

“Don't mind her; she's just another slave here for my enjoyment.” The girl smiled and then bit her lip, color coming over her cheeks as she saw me watching her too. “What's your name, girl?”

“I am owned by Mistress Alice, who calls me 'Isabella', if it pleases you, Sir. ”

I chuckled and pulled Edward's hips back onto me firmly in another thrust as I bottomed out in length. Fuck, he felt good. “He's the one pleasing me right now, Isabella. I have myself a nice little slut of a pet. If he's a real good boy, I'll let him have my cum.”

Edward whimpered and I tightened the rope until I could not get anymore tension in the sisal without causing damage beyond bruising and discomfort. He thrashed against me, teasing my cock with hard, involuntary thrusts. “I haven't had enough of you, pet; have you had enough of my cock?”

The familiar tingle started as his ass wriggled against me. I wasn't ready to cum just yet. Using the rope as leverage, I tugged to pull myself in on the thrust and then pushed onto his back to withdraw. His face was becoming almost purple as he gasped for breath.

A bead of sweat ran along the bumpy length of his spine, and I just had to lick it. Edward shook so hard I could barely keep my grip on the rope. “Your asshole is so beautifully red, Edward. You'd think you've never had this good of a fucking in your boy pussy before. Has anyone pounded you like this before, baby boy?”

Lips parted and his “No, Sir.” was the barest of squeaks. I could still hear ragged breaths in between sobs so knew that he was still getting just enough oxygen. He still wasn't broken though.

“I'm gonna tie you up and leave the rope on all night, pet. Your skin is so pretty like that, the bruising, the purple-red flush of your face. I just love seeing you like this, boy. Or maybe I should leave you like this so anyone can come in and pull the rope tighter. You're such a little slut; I bet you would just love to have two masters come fuck you in the ass and mouth while a mistress grinds herself against the knots in your spine. I hope she doesn't pull on the rope too much.”

I tugged along with my words, causing Edward to stare at me in shock. “No more, Sir; no more. Please, no more. I'm done.”

Looking through the mirror into those tear-filled and blood-shot eyes, I let go. “Ungh. Fuck.” I released the rope and grabbed his hips, squeezing as I fucked my way to one hell of a climax. As my balls unleashed their torrent into the condom, I maintained my gaze on Edward's face as he panted to catch his breath. Withdrawing, I dropped the condom onto a tissue on my tray, and then moved to kneel beside the beautiful, crying, mess of a boy.

Kissing his cheek and then licking the salty ambrosia from my lips. “I'm so glad you called it, baby boy, but it would have been much easier for me to believe you if you had just said, “dragon.”

Edward continued to cry, and being honest, it was the hottest fucking thing I'd seen since the first time I'd been topped. I released the straps holding him and carefully unwound the rope and scarf from his neck. Using my medical training, I examined for any unnecessary damage, and discovering none, I bit down on the shell of his ear before whispering one last command.

“I'll see you at the hospital Monday morning, Doctor Masen.”

He whimpered and tried breathing slowly so that he could speak. “Yes, Carlisle, er, Doctor Cullen, Sir.”

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

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Saturday, February 27, 2010

Donation Drive 12: Embarrassing Encounters

The door shook slightly from the force of the slam and I watched with satisfaction as the framed photograph of Edward and me fell to the ground. When the glass didn't break, I considered opening the door and throwing the picture at him; or at the least, opening and slamming it again. I knew he'd be standing in the hall waiting until I agreed to see him.
"I can hear your breathing and your heartbeat, Bella. Please, talk to me." Edward's voice sounded thick with tears he could not shed.
"Not until you let me feed you. It's been three weeks, Edward. You need to feed on more than animal blood if you're going to keep this diet. Honor our agreement and drink from me."
A thud sounded against the door and was quickly followed by a second and a third, right around where Edward's forehead would be. "I was only able to feed from you then to save you from James. Without that desperate need to protect you, I am not strong enough Bella. Your blood is the most potent scent to me in the entire world. My love for you is only just enough to keep me from attacking you. Give me time to build resistance to your blood's song and I swear to you I will accept your gift. Please, Love, open the door."
I crossed my arms as I huffed and went to sit on my bed. "It's not locked, and last I checked vampires weren't stopped by a lack of invitation."
"I was raised to not enter someone else's private space without an invitation. It is hard enough for me to overcome my rules of propriety regarding my unchaperoned presence in the room with an unmarried female, let alone those of basic courtesy."
I rolled my eyes as he knocked on the door. Taking a deep breath to calm myself, I invited my boyfriend, for lack of a better word, to come in. "Who's there?"
"You know perfectly well that it is Edward."
"How may I help you?"
It was his turn to sigh. "May I please come in, Isabella?"
His exasperation amused me greatly. For once, I held the upper-hand in a situation. "I'm not quite sure, Edward. Would it be proper for us to be unchaperoned?" To tease him, I quietly unfastened the top two buttons of my pajama shirt and leaned back onto my elbows on the bed. "You may come in, Edward."
The door opened just enough to admit him and he froze as his eyes landed on me. "W-Wha-What did... your shirt."
I looked down seeing that about an inch of cleavage was visible. We had not so much as kissed since our bonding. I felt lucky for the few embraces we'd shared and that he held my hand whenever possible. "Well, Edward, I was in the middle of changing so I can go to Charlie's. Carlisle, as you are aware, does not think it would be wise to have me present when Laurent arrives. You said you would take me, but I'm thinking I might have Jasper take me instead if you aren't going to stop frustrating me." I cocked my head, a silent challenge for Edward to come closer. A level of sexual tension had been building for days, no doubt multiplied by Jasper's gift.
"Oh, I'm frustrating you, am I?" His voice was a dangerous purr and those deep plum lips curved into a smile. "I think my lady doth protest too much. I believe," he paused and took a step nearer my bed, "you enjoy my frustrations or you wouldn't have accepted my gift." Between 'frustrations' and 'gift' Edward moved at his natural speed, surprising me to find him that close, his fingers touching the base of my throat where the small sapphire hung almost invisibly. He seemed to like that I wore his necklace, almost too much, as if it marked me his property somehow.
Edward knelt down, his right leg nestled closely against my left, and the other hovered over me, as if determining where to put it. To end his internal struggle, and aid me in moving things one step further than he has normally allowed in our closeness, I reached for his hip and tugged. Those masterfully designed eyebrows lifted in silent question, yet he acquiesced, allowing me to pull his body down so that he was straddling my thighs, hovering close enough I could feel the slight chill radiating from his skin.
"Did you want something, Isabella?"
I nodded and slid my hand from his hip to shoulder, echoing his shiver. "Edward, do you recall how Jasper had us 'make up'?" He nodded, smiling. "I thought I would like to kiss my boyfriend without someone else compelling him to do so."
Light glinted off his teeth as he gave me a shy smile. My mind painted a blush over his cheekbones as he ducked his head slightly.
"Hold perfectly still." Edward's face came closer and my eyes closed against the breathtaking beauty held in the look of concentration he wore. As soft and fast as a hummingbird's wings, his lips touched the top of my cheekbone, and then fluttered along my jaw. His nose nuzzled my neck as he kissed the hollow of my throat, and then over where I knew my pulse was easily seen and felt. Each touch of his mouth made my body press up into his as he settled down over me, and when his lips finally touched mine, I could not still my hands as I stroked up and down his shoulders and back.
Soft strokes of lips on lips, his on mine, and then a hint of my tongue against his Cupid's bow. Edward whimpered and when I expected him to pull away, he parted his lips, beginning to whisper a warning.
"I know, 'be careful of your teeth'." I mumbled without letting any distance form between us, and carefully slid just the tip of my tongue onto his lower lip.
Edward gasped and I opened my eyes as his whole body stiffened. His eyes were black yet the look in them still held warmth, unlike when he wanted my blood. I moved my tongue gently across his lip, and Edward pressed his hips down onto me and I felt it. Cold breath was panted out onto my mouth as Edward opened his lips, dragging them across mine until he sucked at my lip gently.
While he tugged on my upper lip, I suckled his lower, nipping gently. Edward growled, a playful sound instead of a warning, but I was still careful to not do it again. His tongue, sweet as his scent, gently moved against mine, as if he was unsure what to do. I used body language and the soft whimpers I made to let him know I liked it. My fingers moved up to his hair, clenching and tugging the silky steel strands.
My tongue, soon followed by my entire mouth, began to tingle slightly from his venom, but I knew from experience with James, and the lecture from Carlisle on human and vampire relations, that it was normal. Even a slight knick of my lips and tongue would not be enough to start the change. It would take a true bite or a severe gash to do that.
Edward's cock began to press against me rhythmically as we kissed, his tongue echoing the thrusts our bodies began to make. The arousal he instilled with each touch went beyond any I had felt before. My underwear stuck to me, and I could feel my jeans dampening slightly.
He groaned and pulled back before resting his face into my neck, our hips still seeking more friction. Edward sucked along my collarbone, panting loudly, and then let out a moan as he moved against me sharply five times; they were harder thrusts than before. He shook slightly and then began muttering quickly into my neck. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Oh, God. I'm so sorry."
Before I could react, Edward was off me and had moved to the door. "Ju-just wait here." He closed my door, rattling the hinges with the force, and I heard his slam along with his restroom door a second later. A minute passed, long enough for my breathing to return to normal, and I re-buttoned the top two buttons I'd undone, along with the third which had come loose from our activities.
Oh. Understanding began to dawn on me. Had he? The thrusting, followed with the moaning, quickened pace, and then leaving... I had made Edward cum, in his pants, like a school boy. The glee that filled me had me kicking my feet in the air and fighting back the squeal threatening to erupt. I couldn't let Edward know; I didn't want to embarrass him.
I stayed on the bed, though I did sit up, straightening my clothes. As I attempted to adjust my jeans, I tugged the seam against my clit, sending a shiver of desire through my body. I considered taking care of myself, yet embarrassment over the last time I had indulged in self-love and learned the entire house had heard, kept me from repeating the motion. I would wait until tonight, while in the shower at Charlie's and Edward had come back here.
Edward's soft knock sounded on the door, pulling me from my "plans" to masturbate and release the ache I felt from grinding against him. "Come in."
As he opened the door, "sorry" was already forming on his lips. I shushed him with a held up finger and then patted the bed beside me. Edward, moving at his speed, sat at the foot of the bed, facing away. I wasn't going to have any of that and sat behind him, wrapping my arms around his torso. With a deep breath, I took the risk of making him bolt and abandoned my idea of not letting him know.
"Your clothes are different and your hair is damp. Cold shower?"
He shook his head. "Didn't need one."
I hummed against his back, my cheek warming the shirt and flesh covering his shoulder blade. "Why is that? Because the temperature of the water doesn't matter or because you didn't need to calm a bodily reaction?"
He moved away, leaving me holding the air. "I'm sorry. I've never. It's not." He kept starting and stopping his phrases, or perhaps speaking too quickly for me to hear, as he paced across the floor.
"Edward, it's alright. Did you...?" I trailed off, not knowing which words would upset him further.
He nodded and then covered his face with his hands before moving them up to tug on the forelocks of his hair. Edward ignored me as I motioned him to come back, so I went to him.
"Was that your first time?" I asked as I moved into his path. As he nodded once more, I grasped his forearms and looked up into his golden eyes. Edward had not touched a drop of human blood, saying as a bonded vampire he would not drink from anyone but me; so he had been hunting almost daily since. "It's nothing to be ashamed of. You don't ever take care of your own needs?"
Edward shook his head, his eyes locked on some distant point out the window. "There have been no needs beyond blood until you came into my life."
I reached up and fingered a wayward lock that hung down over his temple and was making his eyebrow twitch. "It's a natural part of life. It is an enjoyable part of life. Didn't it feel good?"
He looked down at me, lips pursing. "That isn't the point. It wasn't proper."
"Fuck proper." Edward winced at my tone and language. "I've been made all too aware that sex and feeding go hand in hand. Beyond what I experienced with Jasper when I fed him from a cup, and what I felt from you while you drank from me, I know that the pleasure we feel is a way to make the blood letting a shared experience. I understand your values and restrictions. I also comprehend your worries about my safety. But, Edward, let me give you what I was born to do. I can feed you and help stop the burn. Let my body comfort yours as well."
"I will not have physical relations before marriage. I will remain a virgin until my wedding night so that my bride and I can share that gift together."
Something inside me hardened. I would never be good enough for him if he expected a virgin bride. Perhaps whatever sick plan James had in mind would have been a better end that pining for a virgin vampire who would not want me in that way. Or, I end my contract and go back to Eric and our boring rut of a life. No vampires would bother me there.
"We need to leave soon, Bella. Is your overnight bag packed?"
"It's behind the door. I'm not done talking yet."
He sighed and turned his hands over so that he was gripping my arms from beneath while I held his on top. "Please, I'm ashamed enough that I spent in my pants like a school boy, let alone that I allowed myself to use you like that. You are a treasure, not someone to be treated like that."
I tightened my fingers so that if he had been human I would have hurt him. "You were not using me. If anything, I was using you. I have never felt so wanted in my life as when you held me tightly at the end. To know that I could make you loose your control, to give you such pleasure, makes me happy, Edward. I want us to experience the full bonding."
"Not unless we're wed. Please, can we end this discussion now?" he pleaded with me, his voice breaking like an adolescent's.
"Fine; but we are going to talk more, later."
He grumbled as he released my arms and went for my bag. "I figured you would say that."
~*~
"Do you have to do this?" I whispered, almost breathing it with no sound.
"Yes, I do. Don't fidget; you're making your father nervous." Edward gave Charlie a smile and shook his hand after my dad opened up the door.
"Bells, Edwin."
"It's Edward, Dad."
My father brushed off my correction and ushered us into the house. As I sat down at the table where pizza was already on two plates, and a third place was empty except for a folded napkin, I looked to Edward for an answer to the question I wasn't quite sure how to ask.
"Carlisle had to tell him."
"Yes, Bells, imagine your dear old dad's surprise to hear that you had bonded and not told me." At his words, I felt my cheeks begin to flame. "When Doctor Cullen called to update their donor registry, I'd asked him how you were doing. He not only tells me that Rosalie requested the moving of Lauren to another facility; so I'm contacting a police department in Denali, Alaska about that, when he drops the bomb on me that Edward had taken on a Donor."
I looked to Edward. It was news to me that Lauren was leaving. "They are replacing both of Emmett's Donors with someone less caustic in demeanor. They are moving Lauren first and if Tanya can keep her under control, they'll take Jessica as well. Carlisle is worried that the girls may run their mouths and find themselves the main and final course all in one meal."
Outside of our own dinner times at "Donation Drive," I rarely saw Lauren and Jessica. They had thrown quite the fit when Edward bonded with me but a few words from Carlisle and Emmett had them both sulking but leaving me alone. My boys, the La Push wolves, had been upset but understood. They felt it was their duty to feed the vampires, to protect humans from having to. Sam, on an outing to get a birthday gift for Jake, told me he was glad I wasn't alone any longer. The conversation had turned to he wished I would forgive Jake and take him back as it had been under a geas from the Pack Alpha, and he could not have done anything else.
I knew, deep in my heart, that Jake had never meant to hurt me. But, sometimes, things happen beyond our control- such as Jake's changing- and we just have to accept the way the current has swept us along. If he and I are meant to be, we will find ourselves back together when the time is right. At the moment, Edward needs me, and I need him.
"Chief Swan, Sir, I would like to ask your blessing to court your daughter. Not only is Isabella my personal bonded Donor, but I would like to be her boyfriend."
My father choked on the bite of pizza he'd just taken.
"I... I don't know what to say. Bells? Do you want to be 'courted' by Edward?"
Both men looked to me for an answer. I mumbled out an answer to Edward as I kicked his leg. "After earlier, I'd say that you'd better be my boyfriend." As he made his own choking sound, I told Charlie that I was already dating Edward as far as I was concerned.
"Well, then, fine, date. Just don't make me a grandfather too soon. Wait, can your kind do that?"
Edward looked taken aback, or wished to shrivel up and die; both, possibly. "Some can, Chief Swan. It depends on the male of my species' maker. If his maker had the ability, so does he. Jasper does not. Emmett does, although he claims Carlisle remedied that. I have blocked their minds regarding such a procedure, so I am not certain."
The rest of our dinner went in an uncomfortable silence until my father finally blurted out, "Are you going to drink from her or not?"
We spoke at the exact same time.
"I think it's time for us to go upstairs while you watch the game at Billy's, Cha-Dad."
"No, Sir, not yet. I am building up my tolerance to the potency of her blood so that I do not overfeed and harm her."
Charlie just shook his head and laughed. "Go on up. I'll clean up down here before I leave. You two are acting like a married couple with all your looks, finishing sentences, and talking over one another. Just wait till your mother hears about you having a boyfriend. You may want to change your phone number now, Bells!" he shouted up after us as we fled further embarrassment for the safety of the stairs.
As we entered my room, Edward sat down in my chair, eyeing the bed like it was going to try to bite him. I scooted to the far side of my bed and looked repeatedly from him to the bed, causing him to sigh and then smile. He emptied his pockets; wallet, keys, cell phone, pocketknife, a small notebook with pen, and a small silver vial. I knew that his venom was inside the vial, along with a syringe that he took out of his pocket while I watched, in case of a "biting accident." If he drank too much and did not have time to get me to Carlisle, venom directly to my heart had a chance to save me.
I watched as he toed off his shoes and then lay down beside me, arms crossed beneath his head while he stared at the ceiling.
"I have a girlfriend. It is not as odd as I'd expected; though the term girlfriend cannot encompass what you mean to me. I do not think any human language can express the emotions within a vampire's heart."
His words sparked something, a memory from my birthday, and I questioned him on what he'd said before hanging up the phone.
"Let your birthday be one of joy as it marks the day you entered this world."
I shook my head. "No, after that. You said you were thinking aloud. What did you say, Edward?"
"For it is the day my salvation was birthed."
I moved slowly to rest my head on his chest and smiled as he tentatively rested one hand atop my hair, stroking through the strands. We laid there in a moment of pure contentment as I pondered his words. There was little I could offer him in exchange for such a heart-felt confession. "Edward, I saw you before I moved to your home. At Forks High, on my first day of classes, I saw you through the door as your family left. You didn't come back. Why did you leave?"
His fingers paused in their soothing movement and then started once more. "Alice saw something. This was before we could reveal our identities. She saw that something was going to happen. Alice had blocked her mind from me so that I could not see. Now, I feel that she saw you and that I would have come across your scent, destroying whatever came between us. I almost killed you that first day you arrived." His fingers moved to my face and carefully turned my head so that I was looking at him. "I wish I had known you then, so I would not have wasted more of my life without having love."
I looked into his eyes that shone with venom and arched my back so that I could kiss him chastely. "I don't want you to waste another day without drinking. Since the first day I arrived, and looked into your eyes, it's always been you. I love you. I know you're scared; I am too, Edward. But, please, let me honor our Bonding and feed you. Let me love you."
He kissed me, hard yet chaste, and then shook his head while he laughed slightly. "I love you. I love you!" A second kiss ended with him pulling my whole body onto his as his tongue slid past my lips and I tried to move his hands to the exposed skin at my waist.
"Not now, Bella. Not yet." His softly spoken chastisement was filled with regret. I could feel the sign of his arousal rising between us and rocked against him. Edward's hiss was one of pleasure and pain as he bit down into his lip. I moved again and reveled as he reached for the headboard and tried to find a place to hold on. "Bella, we need to stop." I could hear his teeth grinding as I rotated my hips a final time before sliding off of him to the side of the bed.
A buzzing from the table had both of us looking at my desk where Edward's phone was vibrating. I fumbled for it and managed to hit the release on his knife by mistake. The "out the front" blade was sharp and caught the soft flesh at the base of my thumb. Blood began to well up in a thin line. "It was an..." He never let me get out "accident."
Edward latched onto the cut like a newborn does at the breast. The rhythmic swallows reminded me of our earlier thrusting and wished that I could feel him like that again. As his eyes darkened, fear began to build.
"Edward, let go. You've had enough."
He growled loudly, the vibration making my hand ache as he clenched it more firmly to his lips.
The scent of metallic salt filled my nose, making me as dizzy as the blood loss was. "Enough, Edward, please. You're taking too much."
"Never enough." He let go of the cut to lick his lips, leaving a trail of blood, and then wrenched my wrist towards him, pulling me into his lap. "Mine." He began to squeeze my hand and release, milking the blood up to the wound as he drank. The room began to turn on its side and sleep beckoned.

Donation Drive, chapter 3 bonus EPOV

my hot chocolate recipe.  My favorite is Alton Brown's hot cocoa recipe,
but the one I make here at home is,  6 oz of grated or coarsely chopped
semi-sweet chocolate and 2 cups of hot milk. I float a tablespoon of fresh
whipped cream (spray can will work, coolwhip will not) into the bottom of your
mug, along with a sprinkle of chocolate curls) and then pour the hot chocolate
over it.

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EPOV from this chapter. It is around 1500 words, so it is almost a
chapter on its own. Please forgive any typos, it hasn't been to my beta.


She'd almost touched me when I pulled out her chair earlier. Bella had not
expected me to be standing there, acting like a gentleman unlike the wild
wolves she had been groped by as if she were a piece of meat for them to toss
around.  I had been stunned to see her melt into Esme's arms, as had Esme,
and the thoughts that had gone through Esme's mind made me ache.

“I want to keep her, Edward, not as a donor. Please make Alice's vision
come true.”

I did not have a chance to ask her about it until when the humans were
distracted by their wine, Bella's laced with a slight dose of a sleeping
medication to encourage her to sleep the entire night. When I asked Esme about
the vision, her thoughts showed me hovering above Bella as she offered me her
neck, my family standing in the back as Esme focused on Bella being changed
and being with us forever.

That's not how I saw it though.  I saw a monster of intense evil hovering
over an angel, damning her to an eternal half-life if I didn't destroy her
altogether first. Even with the less than pleasant odors of the wolves that I
had grown accustomed to, I could smell the fragrance that would haunt every
step I took for the rest of my days until I met the flames which ended me. I
was repulsed by her for doing this to me, for cracking the composure I've
carefully built over a century, and yet drawn to her for the beauty of her
soul.

I couldn't continue to sit there and when I took another breath, the scent of
the blood in my heated goblet mixed with that of Bella and I had to fight back
my urge to take her vein right there at the table. I wanted to pin her to the
table and drink every last drop. Instead, I fled from the table to recover my
senses, knowing that the truce we had with the Quileute would be destroyed if
I drank from an un-contracted human.

Only the police in the area, as well as the shifters because of our history,
were aware of our existence. We no longer were secret by penalty of death, but
secret to avoid the drama humans could, and would, cause. The
over-romanticizing of vampires is what led Jessica and Lauren to us. They had
gone on a vacation to Italy and encountered the Volturi. They recognized
similar physical traits in the guard as they saw in us. Emmett was not about
to be denied fresh blood straight from the source and we agreed to the
Volturi's system.  Now, I am regretting taking on the wolves as donors.

After watching, through Jake's mind, and listening to the fight Bella had
with him, a portion of me was in awe of Bella. She had withstood the advances
of someone she obviously still cares for despite how badly he had left her.
Jake still considered her his 'mate,' and therefore subject to all of his
advances. His thoughts had been so crude as he imagined being intimate with
her, and when she touched him, I had almost cried out that her soul would be
sullied by such an action, but she was only trying to move him away from her.

When she ran away, coming down in her flight to be as far from him as
possible, her scent was compounded with her adrenaline, and I was intoxicated.
 She had almost touched me a second time then. Bella was as beautiful on the
inside as the out, and I wanted to taste her, gorge myself on her blood.  When
I had run away, she has asked about me; Bella wanted to ensure that I was
alright when it was her fate in question.

Bella dug around in the cabinets of the kitchen, searching for something. I
cursed my inability to read her mind. I wanted to do something for her.

(She's looking for hot chocolate mix, Edward. We don't have any instant.)
Alice called to me silently through her thoughts.

I was determined to be a good host and provide for my family's guest while
she was in our home. It was not Bella's fault that she was not one of the
humans who knew of us, despite her father's knowledge.

I did not want to startle her, so lost in her frustration, so I took a breath
and then called out that we did not have instant. My lungs burned to the point
of incineration.  Each word out forced the super heated air up my throat and
scorched my mouth with venom that burned liked acid.

She jumped and I moved so that she could see me as I walked slowly to the
kitchen counter.  The dim night light caught on Bella's eyes and I was nearly
lost in their depths. Her eyes glittered in the dark and I could make out the
colors comprising them, further fueling my desire to let my fingers glide
across the smooth skin where her eyelashes fell.

I had watched Esme make some of the beverage confection before and knew what
went into it.  I gathered the implements I would need to provide refreshment
for Bella and carefully measured out exactly two ounces of cream into the pan,
followed by four ounces of milk.

“Edward.”  I stopped pouring and looked at her in fear. I must have hurt
her somehow.  When I moved, I had to have knocked into Bella, too soft for me
to notice but I bruised her arm somehow. I looked over her arm and then a
gentle smile upon those full lips drew my eyes upwards.  As Bella continued to
speak, her voice shattered my pretended aloofness and I longed to whisk Bella
away and have her served the worlds finest hot chocolate, not something pan
made in my home.

“Have you ever made hot chocolate before?”

I was making it wrong.  I searched my mind for my memories of how Esme made
it, and I was doing it how she did. Was it not a good recipe?

I stepped away, begging Alice to send me some small clue of what to do. She
offered nothing but her thoughts on drinking from Seth as Jasper pleasured her
with his hands. Jake's thoughts were on how sorry he felt yet was unwilling to
give up the money he made from feeding Rosalie's blood lust and its
accompanying physical lust.

It was... refreshing... yes, that is word, to watch Bella make her hot
chocolate without her mental commentary as she worked.  The situation was a
double edged sword of frustration with only the thin line to walk which was
actually refreshing. The rest of her existence was my bane.

“Where are the mugs?”

I tried to take a breath, but venom flooded my lungs instead of allowing air
through.  I pointed to the cabinet, indicated the coffee mugs and other
glasses.

(Edward, this is the reason I made us all leave Forks before.) Alice showed
me sitting beside Bella in Biology and luring her out in the woods where I
toyed with her, a bite and a sip here, carefully sucking out my venom and
sealing the wound before giving her another and another before ripping out her
throat.

Bella turned to me, the heat of her body and the cocoa coming nearer.  She
almost touched me again, third time is the charm they say. Her close proximity
and the vision from Alice of me holding a mostly naked Bella, her clothes
ripped from my teeth, had given me a less than gentlemanly response, one of
baser instincts.

I needed to get away before I did something regretful. I would not shame my
family for my lack of control.  A few days, a month at the most, and I would
be fully gorged on enough blood to possibly withstand her blood.

(Go, Edward, now while she's turned away,) Alice's thoughts yelled out as
Bella set the mug she'd made for me aside.  I would have drank it all, for
her. That much would have made me physically ill later as I purged it from my
body, but for Bella, I would have accepted anything she made with her own
hands.

I ran like a coward, away from someone who just wanted to show me some
genuine bit of companionship. The Denali would house me while I fed on the
local fauna.

“I'm sorry, Edward. I wasn't aware you didn't like...”

Her words tore at my long dead heart, wrenching fresh blood from the stone.
My responding words were not audible even to other vampires above the roar of
the engine as I started the car.  “Until I'm strong enough to explain it all
to you, Bella. Be safe.”

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Donation Drive tease

“Oh, I'm frustrating you, am I?” His voice was a dangerous purr and those deep plum lips curved into a smile. “I think my lady doth protest too much. I believe,” he paused and took a step nearer my bed, “you enjoy my frustrations or you wouldn't have accepted my gift.” Between 'frustrations' and 'gift' Edward moved at his natural speed, surprising me to find him that close, his fingers touching the base of my throat where the small sapphire hung almost invisibly.


Edward knelt down, his right leg nestled closely against my left, and the other hovered over me, as if determining where to put it. To end his internal struggle, and aid me in moving things one step further than he has normally allowed in our closeness, I reached for his hip and tugged. Those masterfully designed eyebrows lifted in silent question, yet he acquiesced, allowing me to pull his body down so that he was straddling my thighs, hovering close enough I could feel the slight chill radiating from his skin.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Donation Drive 11: Sultry Sapphire

I felt fire go down my arm and then onyx eyes met mine, a silent plea for forgiveness in them, as Edward pulled his thumb away from my skin, blood dripping from the nail.
When I did not respond, he locked his lips around the cut he'd made and began to drink. The pull was soft, yet I could hear him swallowing. Each tug on the skin was felt on my lips, breasts, and between my thighs. It felt as if he was touching me everywhere at once. Once my mind had caught up to what Edward was doing, that he had bonded with me, it was over. Edward threw back his head; shades of amber and burgundy were highlighted in his hair from the firelight. Twin rivulets of blood ran down on either side of his mouth; his lips were stained as if he were a child eating berries. His eyes were dark red as they met mine and stayed locked with my gaze as his tongue, warm from my blood, lapped at the jagged line he'd created.
"She's mine now, James." Edward's words were the softest whisper, one that barely reached my ears, yet James answered with a roar. I felt myself being shoved backwards, and once Edward saw that I had landed on the love seat, he crouched and then sprung for James.
Bodies blurred; I saw a hint of auburn and then blonde as the men circled one another. A crash and then its twin nearly deafened me as their bodies collided. It was faster than my eyes and brain could keep up with, yet I could not look away. A sickening crack, followed by a howl of pain that I knew came from Edward, had me on my feet despite being unable to do anything more than distract him from the fight.
I stepped forward, hoping I could procure James' pocketknife which had fallen to the floor in his struggles with Edward. Neither man saw me as I picked it up. The knowledge that I'd fed Edward, knowing my blood was making him faster and stronger, possibly fast enough to save his life- and mine- gave me the strength to do what I knew was stupid. If I could just bleed a little, it would distract James and hopefully awaken the dark beast inside Edward. He needed to become that feral monster in order to win.
The knife felt colder than Edward's mouth as I held it to the palm of my hand and began to clench around it, when the air was knocked from my lungs and I felt myself going backwards. A scream started in my chest but a cold hand cupped my mouth and Jasper's sultry southern whisper started in my ear as he carefully unfurled my fingers.
"I've gotcha, darlin'. Don't do something stupid like that and distract my brother from his prey. Alice says it's all gonna be alright. This needs to happen. But you, you almost went and pulled a foolish stunt and got yourself killed. Edward is gone right now; all you have right there are two very pissed off vampires fightin' over a meal. Sorry, sugar, but that's all you are at this moment to them." Jasper paused and kissed my forehead before picking me up to cradle against his chest. "The fight's about to move outside and I know you'll want to follow."
"How do you...?"
Jasper didn't let me finish my question. "I know fightin' vampires, Bella. James is losin' his footin' in the parlor so he's lookin' for any place to garner an advantage."
A growl of rage came from James and I felt a hollow ache in my chest as I considered what I had been building with him. "He's going to be alright, isn't he, Jasper? They'll fight, and then stop when it's clear who will win."
The bone-chilling laugh coming from the one Cullen, or rather Whitlock, to always protect me, filled me with a sense of dread that I was looking at the funeral of several loved ones. Someone would die, possibly both men, and it was my fault. "Stop them, Jasper!"
At my scream, the front window shattered in an explosion of glass and wood as the frame gave way beneath Edward's back. James lunged out after him and Jasper followed, using the door to keep our distance. "Sweetheart, I'd love nothin' more than to give that weasel of a nomad a lesson and strip his hide for what he was intendin' with you, but Alice told me, as if I didn't know it already, that I have to protect you."
The men paused as Edward bellowed and I saw James' mouth was locked over Edward's forearm. Venom dripped onto the ground, the moonlight cast a metallic sheen to it as it coated the grass beneath them.
"Let him go, James!" My scream sent several roosting birds off into the skies and then there was a soft gasp behind us that made Jasper pause. It made everyone pause.
"The girl dies if you don't stop, James." Alice came down the front steps, Victoria in her arms, her neck pulled back sharply as Alice spoke into the skin that had a few red lines from Victoria's fingers pulling at Alice.
James looked at Victoria and then to me, and shrugged. "Let her. This," he paused and gestured between Edward and himself, "is worth a thousand human..." He didn't get to finish his statement.
I watched, as if it all happened in slow motion, as my bonded vampire seemingly kissed James behind the left ear and then whispered to him. The word "human" turned into a growl and then the sound of metal being shredded as Jasper turned me so that I could not see.
"Don't look, sugar. You don't wanna watch this; it ain't pretty." He brushed my hair back from my face while Victoria screamed in Alice's arms; waves of calm wrapped around me. "I know you had feelings for him, weak though they were, and you need to remember him how he was to you. Don't remember James as a monster, even though he was one. Don't let him poison you to us."
Alice walked past us, carrying a screaming and struggling Victoria. She did not so much as look at me, but called Jasper's name softly. "I'm taking her to Carlisle for a sedative. We'll have to call Laurent to retrieve her."
Jasper nodded and then moved to the porch swing, still refusing to let me turn my face away from his neck. I breathed in the pinon pine, musk, and sweet cedar scent, letting it calm me more than his emotional manipulations could. Above all, Edward was okay. I kept telling myself that. Everything would be okay as long as he was.
Jasper's chest rumbled slightly beneath me and I felt his jaw moving. Jasper stopped and began to whisper to me once again. "Edward is takin' the remains further out. They have to be burnt. I've told him to go out and hunt once done. He needs to ground out the energy pulsin' through him to keep you safe. Now, he can still hear you from where he's at, so why don't you tell him you're okay."
"Ed-Edward," my voice was shaky to my own ears, so I paused to take a deep breath as Jasper set me down on the swing beside him. I looked out to where I could see a glow of fire in the darkness, purple smoke rising above it. "Edward, I'm fine. My arm is a little sore but it's okay. I know that it wasn't a planned feeding so it was harder than normal."
I barely registered the blur coming toward me as cold hands wrapped around my wrists. "Forgive me, even if I must beg every day for the rest of eternity, for taking the choice to bond away from you. It is wrong of me to want you like this, Bella. It is not safe for you. I cannot trust myself to be safe for you. Regardless of the facts presented to me by your mere existence, and the pain I feel in being near to you, I could not let him have you. "
Edward's glorious hair was covering my hands; parts were matted with venom, others with mud, so that his head, bowed down into my lap, looked like a gory patchwork quilt. His shirt was gone, and I saw smudges of dirt across his carved alabaster back. Edward seemed so fragile as if he could crumble like greenware pottery if touched too hard.
"Bella, when I heard you tell James you wanted to feed him, I knew God was finally delivering judgment for the lives I'd taken during my rebellious years. Oh, God! My love, he was going to kill you. I couldn't let that happen. I had to stop you from allowing him to destroy you."
His fingers began to clench around my wrists, causing fire to lance up my arms. Edward released me as I gasped. "I'm nothing but an abomination. I'm not strong enough to stay away. When Alice told me I needed to face my inner demons instead of running away, I came back for you. Even now, I hurt you while all I try to do is apologize. Bella, I don't know how to love you, only that I do."
He looked up at me, the face of a fallen angel. Red hair fell into his eyes, matching the dull red his eyes had become. "I love you, Isabella Marie Swan." He whispered it, as if to speak it aloud would break the bubble of truth that left his lips. Edward twisted my hands over, and put a necklace with a small sapphire set as a rain drop into my upturned palms. "Will you be my bonded Donor?"

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Donation Drive 10: Bonded Betrothal

I couldn't believe my ears. James wanted me. He really wanted me- as his donor. I would be helping others by feeding him as often as my health allowed. But, what about the Cullens? Victoria? How would this work? James stopped my questions with a gentle kiss. He stepped back, smiling, and I felt my heart skip a beat. I would spend the rest of my life as his donor, however long that ended up being.
“I want to drink from you, dear one. I do not have a bonding gift with me, but I will give you anything you want. Let me open your vein and drink directly from you. I want you as my own.”
I didn't care about the bonding gift. There was nothing I needed that the Cullens had not already provided. James would take my mind off Jake and Edward. He was all I needed. He was all I would ever need beyond food, drink, clothing, and shelter from the weather. As a wealthy vampire, he could, and would, provide those for his donor.
When I asked about Victoria, James stroked one thumb down my face. In that moment, I could almost feel his affection for me as if Jasper was near and projecting what he felt coming from James. His eyes were soft as he gave me a serene smile. His dirty blonde hair was coming out of his ponytail, tendrils hung around his face. James looked at once vulnerable and deadly as he turned to look at the stairs.
“I will trade Victoria to the Cullens in exchange for your contract and pay any cost Carlisle demands.” There was a tone to his voice that put an edge on his words. I could not discern where his thoughts were, but it felt as if I'd gone from being something he desired to being a pawn in a game. Was this what I wanted? Could I live with this decision? He would not let me feed Jasper again, that much I knew. Could I give up my emotional bond with Jasper? What about my feelings for Edward?
“Just because Edward doesn't want you, does not mean I don't. I see how strong you are, how beautiful, sweet, and amazing you are as a human. I want you with me for as long as you'll have me, Bella. Bond with me. Feed me. Share your life with me.”
James leaned in, kissed my neck, his tongue outlined where he wanted to drink, and his hands came up to cup my breasts. The shivers that went through me were as emotional as they were physical. He saw me as more than just a meal. James, the hunter, wanted me. I would let him have me. My cheeks ached as I smiled at him. I couldn't have imagined a better proposal, even one of being his donor, not a lover, though I knew that would soon come.
“Yes, James.”
I was lifted up and crushed to James' bare chest, the chiseled planes of his abs were like hugging the statue of David as he swung us around in circles. My ice cream was abandoned as James carried me into the living room to the overstuffed couch. He sat and draped me over his lap and the arm of the couch.
“You're sure about this, Sweet cheeks?” James' fingers began to rub up and down my arm before stroking my neck and shoulders. It was sweetly romantic despite the knowledge he was going to cut me soon.
“Yes, I want to be bonded to you, James.”
He stared off into space, and for a moment, I wondered if he regretted choosing me. Perhaps he wouldn't like my blood. Just as I opened my lips, he began to chuckle, shaking me slightly with the movement.
“Babe, you know, I'll change you one day. Whenever you're ready to stop aging, just let me know. It'll hurt like a son of a bitch for a couple days; but then, just you, me, the open road, and eternity. We can go anywhere and do anything we want. The world is ours, Bella. We can each pick out a lovely little donor. For that matter, I can buy Jake from the Cullens if you want to drink from him. I'll let you fuck him. I sleep with my donors and won't stop you from doing the same with yours.”
I knew that James was also saying I couldn't stop him from it. I would not be his “only” and if Jake and I were to have a feeding relationship, I doubt that I could stop myself from seeking out other forms of relief from Jake. I could not do that to Jake. He would never want to see me as a vampire; most likely he'd rather I died than be changed, no matter the circumstances.
James' cheeks rounded out as he smiled and then he leaned toward me, his forehead resting on mine. His icy fingers began to rub up and down my arm as he sucked at the flesh of my neck. I wanted to take him inside me while he fed. James was reawakening my lust with each pass of his tongue across the edge of my earlobe and each finger nail that gently scratched down my forearm, leaving a white – then red- line in its wake.
“Tell me, Bella,” he murmured into my ear. “Do you want to feed me?”
I was going into this with my eyes open. I knew it would not be sunshine and roses. It would not be the moonlight and orchids I could expect from Edward, nor the twilight runs through the woods and sunflowers I knew would come with loving Jake. This would be a life of service, to James and then to the monster he would one day awaken within me. The good moments and the purpose I would fulfill, each feeding would save a human life; those would make the price worthwhile.
“Yes, I want to know my blood is helping you to live.”
I trusted him to do this. I knew what it felt like with Jasper; and was aware the pain would be sharper without the empathic gift. James nodded, his eyes darkening as he let the blood lust set in. In a blur, he pulled out his pocket knife and then paused, giving me a smile. It reminded me of a cat catching a bird, that small twitch to his lips as if he knew the punchline to a joke I was not privy to.
With a flip of his thumb, the knife opened, and I jumped slightly before his free hand stroked my hair. “It'll just hurt for a moment, Babe.”
He pressed the blade against my arm and I closed my eyes. I focused on all but the pain (and blood) that was about to come from my wrist. There was the slightest pinprick of pain and then...crash! The front door slammed open, the glass shattering on either side. I jerked my arm from the blade as I saw Edward standing in the doorway, half-crazed. His shirt was torn from his body in places, buttons missing, and smudged with dirt. His clothes were soaked from the rain, and I could see in the dim-light that his eyes were the darkest black.
Edward looked to James and then to me. I held my arms to my chest, not wanting James to open my veins in front of Edward. I did not want to risk his control.
I heard a growl and did not know which man it came from, only that it meant trouble. Faster than I could see, even quicker than James, Edward wrenched me from James' lap and into his arms. I felt fire go down my arm and then onyx eyes met mine, a silent plea for forgiveness in them, as Edward pulled his thumb away from my arm, blood dripping from the nail.
When I did not respond, he locked his lips around the cut he'd made and began to drink. The pull was soft yet I could hear him swallowing. Each tug on the skin was felt on my lips, breasts, and between my thighs. It felt as if he was touching me everywhere at once. Once my mind had caught up to what Edward was doing, that he had bonded with me, it was over. Edward threw back his head; shades of amber and burgundy were highlighted in his hair from the firelight. Twin rivulets of blood ran down on either side of his mouth; his lips were stained as if he were a child eating berries. His eyes were dark red as they met mine and stayed locked with my gaze as his tongue, warm from my blood, lapped at the jagged line he'd created.
“She's mine now, James.” Edward's words were the softest whisper, one that barely reached my ears, yet James answered with a roar. I felt myself being shoved backwards, and once Edward saw that I had landed on the love seat, he crouched and then sprung for James.

A/N: Thank you so very much for waiting patiently on this chapter. Here is James' POV of the past two chapters to give you an idea of his thoughts.
James POV
End of chapter 9, beginning of chapter 10.
Hate was all I knew as Emmett kept me from my quarry. I couldn't fight his strength. I couldn't fight the ennui being emitted by the empath. Despite my ire, I couldn't find the interest in moving, had I been able. The wolf snapping at me was a threat, yet all I could do was remain under Emmett as the wolf retreated into the hall under the demand of his Alpha who'd come in to join our fight. Sam hadn't shifted yet so he was not worthy of my notice except for how his blood would taste as I ripped out this throat for being one more barrier between my prey and me.
I'd told Bella I was a hunter, and I had not lied. I was a hunter, and I was hunting the best way to hurt the Cullens. They'd taken my Alice from me. I could have handled the empath alone but they kept evading me, going into larger cities where I couldn't follow as easily. I trailed their scents to the Cullens' home and Carlisle had threatened to contact the Volturi if I made a move for my singer. Aro told me if I waited, I would find someone even sweeter.
I finally had. No, I'm not saying that her blood is sweeter; I will never feel a compulsion like that for my dear, sweet, Mary Alice's blood. Bella's blood is dearer though, for the pain I can cause when I drain her. I will make her love me. She wanted me, I could smell it. I will turn that to my favor, bond her to me, drink from her until she is weak, and then turn her if I wish, or simply kill her and leave her body for Edward to find. Better yet, I will wait until I know Edward is close; I will drain Bella when he is stuck watching my thoughts, and then I shall take her body with me, and hide pieces all around the world.
No, James. Make them all suffer. I will change her. She will love me. I will take her from him by claiming her humanity. I will change her, and then tear her body into a thousand parts, and put each into a golden box and bury them in my secret places. Edward will receive a box with her heart inside, my venom having atrophied it at last. Only when he has found all of them, will I send him the clue to find her head. Those final pieces shall stay with me. I will burn them as he approaches, ending my game.
Anger sank back into me as Jasper released his powers from me, focusing onto Bella as she shook in his arms. “Shh, I've gotcha now, darlin'.” His words seemed to have a stronger effect than his energetical manipulations, and I growled as she twined herself around him. Jasper began speaking too fast for my Bella to hear. “I never shoulda left you alone after feedin' from you. Alice told me that it would have been better to feed directly, breaking the law, and then claimin' you more physically, instead of leavin' you to the hunter. I thought we were safer this way, Sugar.”
I laughed silently to myself. Bella wasn't safe anywhere. I could track her scent anywhere, if they did manage to get her away. Human girls were easy enough to manipulate; if I could simply talk to her once away, I could lure her to me. A special trap would have to await her in the end, something more elaborate than any I'd pulled off before. Bella will break for me, emotionally and physically, until I can leave her spirit completely shattered.
James POV Chapter 10 end and into chapter 11
Bella's tongue was hot as fire as it ran along my abs and down across the ridge of my hip bone. She'd long since licked up all of the caramel and was moving lower, working up the nerve to pull down my jeans which were already unbuttoned. I smiled smugly as Bella licked her lips. She was nervous, still not entirely sure she wanted to do this.
“Please,” I let out a breathy sigh. She looked up at me, apparently seeing something in my eyes, and then parted her lips, taking my length into her mouth. I was close already from knowing that the hunt was almost over and it took little to send me over the edge. Being silent would have ruined my fun, so I let out a loud grunt as pleasure coursed through me, growling out her name along with several expletives. I heard Emmett laugh to Jasper about wishing he had defied Edward's wishes and claimed her as his own. Like I would have handled that well. I'd have added Emmett to my list of targets.
Yes, when Edward had called this morning saying he was coming back, determined to fight his own impulses for Bella, I upped my plan's timetable. Victoria knew that if we were caught, we would both be destroyed by the Volturi. While her senses were not as acute as a vampires, my blood slave has instincts I have learned to trust. When I heard her complaining about there not being a show on “The Food Network,” I knew that something, or someone, was coming.
I pulled Bella to her feet and enjoyed watching her attempt to shimmy out of her pants. With a quick flick of my wrist, I held both hands in front of her. “Bella, as wonderful as this is, I think we should stop. I need to eat before we can continue.” She looked up at me, her lips pursing, and I could easily see her unveiled anger and jealousy. Bella was playing right into my hands, making the hunt almost too easy. “No, my feisty little Bella. Let me drink from you, not from a cup.”
Her eyebrows lifted, her mouth falling into an 'o' of shock. “I want to drink from you, dear one. I do not have a bonding gift with me but I will give you anything you want. Let me open your vein and drink directly from you. I want you as my own. I will trade Victoria to the Cullens in exchange for your contract and pay any cost Carlisle demands.” Victoria being pissed would be worth this game.
She was still undecided so I played my last card. “Just because Edward doesn't want you, does not mean I don't. I see how strong you are, how beautiful, sweet, and amazing you are as a human. I want you with me for as long as you'll have me, Bella. Bond with me. Feed me. Share your life with me.” I used the words Jasper had said, the ones that had made her melt after he fed from her.
Bella's face lit from within, her smile bright. “Yes, James.”
~*~
I whisked her away into the living room, her body resting on me gently as I slowly massaged her arm. I kissed along her neck until I heard the distant screeching of brakes on gravel. Edward was within hearing range. Good. “Tell me, Bella, do you want to feed me?”
“Yes. I want to know my blood is helping you to live.”
I smiled as she looked up at me with all the trust in the world. Edward's car crashed against a tree, and I could hear him swearing as he ran for the house, his legs faster than his car could go. I had just enough time to seal the deal. I pulled out my pocket knife, and slowly hid my thoughts deeper from Edward's hearing. I had the knife tip against her forearm, skin dipping slightly, when the door slammed open. Bella jerked away from me as Edward stood before us; his shirt was tattered, his eyes were jet black, and all I could think of was that the fight of my existence was about to occur. I couldn't wait.